Do What Makes You Happy

The past few days have raised alot of questions for me. What do I want to do? Where do I want to be? Last night was the same as the nights before. Me, laying in bed, making pros and cons lists, asking myself more questions and trying to work out the answer. Brody woke up and drowsily asked me, "What's wrong?"
I told him I was fine just trying to turn my brain off so I could fall asleep. Then he said "Just do what makes you happy." and returned to his snoring (which in my opinion is adorable...). 
Do what makes you happy. What makes you happy? What makes me happy.
Brody makes me happy (hey...I do him....hehehe...that was naughty).
Writing makes me happy.
Puppies, kitties and fluffies make me happy.
Being around my friends and family make me happy.
Sleeping in makes me really happy.
Do what makes you happy. 
I thought about the different scenarios and which one made me happiest. But by this time I was so drowsy and finally drifted off to sleep.
This mantra followed me all through out today. Do what makes you happy. 
Last night I was putting in orders for my final order for Slumber Parties, and fond memories came to me. I always enjoyed coming home after a party and that hour of quiet, just me and hearing the clicks of my fingers typing on the computer. I liked sorting out my inventory seeing what was new on the consultant website, and it's probably late at night so it's just me with my thoughts, and maybe Taffy curled up sleeping my on lap. THAT is what made me happy.
Why am I giving it up? Because I felt like I had failed? I had seen so many women do amazing things with this business and I felt like I could never get there. So after a few months I just give up? All the successful people we know have failed once or twice in their life. What if they had given up after a few months? Would we have the use of a telephone? A car? Heart transplants? Hearing aids? 
Now by no means am I comparing what I am doing to medical miracles but what if I kept going, would someday some young twenty-something say "One day I want my business to be like Arielle's." Would I inspire someone like my sponsor Jamie inspired me? 
Do what makes you happy. And only that. Why do we constantly feel the need to do things we HATE? And sometimes we do it to impress people we don't even like. Why? I don't have the money. She won't let me do that. I'm not smart enough. Guess what? You say it, it will happen. You put boundaries there, now you have to deal with them. No one has put boundaries in your way except you. 
I have constantly said, "I don't have time. I don't have money. I'm not smart enough. I never finish what I start." and everytime I say that, the universe proves to me that it's true. If I change my way of thinking and start saying, "I DO have time. I DO have the money. I AM Smart enough." The universe will hear what I am saying and prove to me that it is true. 
I am so done with worrying about how other people do things, or how they'll think of me. I am who I am. And I really don't have anything I want to change (I'd like bigger boobies though..if we're making a list...). 
Brody may not even remember what he said last night but I will always remember that amazing advice.
Do. What. Makes. You. Happy. 
If that's being a street artist then DO IT. If that's being a stay at home mom. DO IT. If you want to be the crazy homeless guy looking for cans in the street gutter. By all means, DO IT! Who cares what others think? Who cares if others think that you may not have enough talent? You set the bar on how much you succeed. If you choose to listen to those people then you've set the bar for not ever succeeding. And later on when you proved them right you'll start saying it was because no one believed in you. No one cared about you. Oh shut up. You chose to listen, you chose to believe it, YOU are the reason that you failed. Not because your mommy or daddy didn't give you enough hugs, not because you have a learning disability, not because you were poor. You didn't succeed because YOU didn't believe in yourself, YOU didn't work hard enough. YOU chose to believe that all those factors were things that would keep you back. 
Jack Canfield was abused by his father....he now has authored all those wonderful cheesy "Chicken Soup for the Soul" books, he lives in a $6 million mansion.
John Assaraf grew up in gangs and violence and was told that's how it was going to be for the rest of his life. He is also a millionaire who studies quantum physics.
John Demartini has MULTIPLE learning disabilities and was told he'd never even graduate high school, he is now a leader in research of Human Development and Behavior (that requires a PHd if you didn't know). 
Why did these guys succeed? Because they didn't allow for things from the past to decide how their future was going to be. 
Do what makes you happy?
What do you love to do? What makes you happy? If you have to spend weeks looking for it then search for it. Even if it takes years! I still don't have my answer. But I'll be glad when I find it and start living by it. No matter how big the paycheck is, no matter where it is you just have to do it. Life is too short to being doing something you hate. Do what you love.